Wednesday, August 22, 2007

I read this blog n so touch of his writing on this issue n it's a reminder to me too....

"Son, please for give me......for not having you on top my mind these past few days as I am busy handing over my job and finishing things at work.I called home and spoke with your dearest mom, and I forgot to ask you to come to the phone. I could faintly heard your voice asking if I was very busy as I was clicking the call off. There was a tinge of pride in your voice - for having a busy dad. I am so sorry, for did not even ask if you were alright, and how you were spending your time during this school holiday in Kuala Lumpur. I called back to speak to you, but you have gone off to play. I heard your dearest mom calling your name and your reply although again very faint, made me stopped pacing my office."Mom, tell ayah I am learning to be busy too, just like him. I want to be happy just like him when I grow up".Son, please forgive me for making you think that being busy is a cool thing! I am reminded of your school essay where you have written that "My dad work in an airport and in an air plane. My dad is happy because he is busy".That day, when I was reading your exercise book you made sure that I read that particular essay because you wanted to ask me ....."Ayah, is it difficult to be busy?".Your dear mom must have felt that my heart broke with your reply. The line went dead. I called up later, and she was in tears. She apologised if I was hurt. And I apologised because I was not there with you. You are not to be blamed son, just like many more of your friends are not to be blamed. Like most busy parents, we sometimes took you for granted. We buy toys and presents to keep you happy, to substitute for our absence. And son, little did you know that only last month I came home late and had to hide my sadness when I saw you sleeping peacefully hugging the little airline teddy bear I bought for you. There was a cake on the dining table - untouched except for marks of your little fingers tasting it. I broke down that night! It was your birthday son, and you wanted to wait for me before you celebrate your own birthday and eat yor cake.......I am so sorry son, for teaching you that I was too busy to be there for you and that being busy makes me happy.The next morning, your happiness and excitement in sharing the cake with me failed to make up for my guilt.Here I am sitting alone typing this, feeling wretched and miserable for I'd rather be hugging you son than coming home to an empty house.Please sleep tight and have a wonderful sweet dream.
"Son, being busy is not cool and it does not make me happy. What makes me happy is to have you lying on my tummy telling me stories about your day at school. I miss you dearly!"
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

System Down

Yessss!!!....akhirnya aku ada sepanjang hari utk update blog.....bole buat kat umah tapi malas coz xleh nak concentrate.....umah is time for my babies (including u too Hun).

System down since Friday until next mornin due to 'reorg data'(apakejadah aku pun xpaham). Yg pasti anak2 buahku pun tengah relax. No payment for today.

Nak citer pasai pi Kuantan. Due to that i can't be at This Lovely Lady' Wedding. Sorry k but aku doakan kebahgiaan hingga akhir hayat buat dia n hubby. Cantik dia pada hari itu. Back to Kuantan. My first time there wit hubby. Bagi taklimat, then after that kami pi jejalan kat tepi pantai. Ambik gambaq...posing sakan. I will load the pix tomorrow since the pix kat umah. At 12noon kami checkout from De Rhu Resort. Pi pekan Kuantan n checkin kat Vistana Hotel. Not a bad hotel, nice scenery n very comfy bed. Kami jejln kat pekan Kuantan n mlmnyer makan kat Restoran Thai (lupala namanyer).....ingat nak carik Ikan Patin masak Tempoyak....rupa2nyer lauk tu banyak kat Temerloh......org Kuantan lebih ke arah Timur. Kami makan paprik, lala goreng chili n bistik. Balik tu aku kena ciritbirit plak coz aku sorang jer yg mengabiskan Lala. Sian hubby pi carik ubat.....sib baik kat hotel tu ada farmasi.


Anak-anak dijaga oleh bibik but ditemani oleh Mama (inlaw). Thanx Mama!(eventhough dia xbaca blog nih). Tu gambaq Mama n sebelah dia Bibik. Dah 1 yr++ bibik ngan kami. Alhamdullillah, she' ok. Bagi aku n hubby, dia dapat jga anak-anak kami dgn baik itu sudah cukup memadai. So mana yg kureng2 tu tutup mata je. Kami tak berkira sangat. Masak tetap my task di rumah. Bibik only jaga anak2, mengemas n mengurus baju (sidai, lipat n iron). The rest dibuat oleh kami. Thank you bibik. Takde dia parah gak kami. Oklah....dah abis idea nih. Hubby ajak lunch. Best gak!! "When u gonna fetch me n where to go ....Ayang" (This is why i can't stop crazy about this man) ...full of surprises.......

Uiiisssshhhh.....Akhirnya!!!



Dah lebih seminggu xupdate.....bukan aper......sejak pi kuantan ari tu....SA reformat PC.....asal tulis.....ilang......upload gambaq....page cannot be displayed plak.....sib baik makcik teror gak mengadjust setting internet ......akhirnya keluor gak benda yg ditulis nih......Buah Ati cek ni dah lebih banyak citenyer dlm blog compared to mine. Bulan Ogos nih memang bulan paling bemakna. Macam2 yg belaku pada bulan nih......but the most can't wait moment is this comin 31 August. Yayaya.....Merdeka Day but last 4 yrs inilah tarikh keramat buat aku n insan yg paling aku sayang. Dialah satu2nya lelaki yg berjaya menambat hati sejak ayah tiada. Dialah penganti ayah dlm merawat jiwa yg luka, membuat aku senyum kembali, menceriakan hari2 yg mendatang serta menyenangkan ati aku sehingga lar nih badan pun cam dipam2 sebab senang ati punya pasai. Mungkin Ayang tak nampak but soal jiwa nih Allah sajer yg tahu betapa grateful nyer i ada u.
Isshh...isshhh.....menitik ayaq mata sambil mengarang isu kali nih.... **hugs** ......Thank You B for always being there for me......support me....n luv me.....Happy comin 4th Anniversary.....

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Jaja dah mula berdiri n membuli

Jaja nak masuk 8 bulan, dah merangkak laju.....n lar nih dah pandai berdiri sendiri berpaut pada sofa.....hopefully raya nih dia dah start bertatih...senang skit pakai baju kurung....so cam biasa below are some of her moment....

....dan adik gak dah pandai buli kakak....sian coz kakak xpandai melawan balik.....

...but as for me they are sweet together.......

Spagetti

Blog nih memang dah berabuk.....so bagi menebus kesunyiannya....let d pix do the talking k....enjoy....

1. bahan2 utk buat spagetti

2. tumis bahan utama...bawang, bwg putih n daging...


3. masukkan sos prego, tomato puree, air, mushroom, tomato n capsicum

4. Last skali masukkan garam, gula, daun sup n oregano

5. Taarrraaaa....siap dah.....


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